Joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of just friends
We’re the kids who feel like dead ends
And I want to be known for my hits, not just my misses
I took a shot and didn’t even come close
At trust and love and hope
And the poets are just kids who didn’t make it
And never had it at all

Please put the doctor on the phone ‘cause I’m not making any sense
Blame everyone but me for this mess
And my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I’m hopelessly hopeful, you’re just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all

And the record won’t stop skipping
And the lies just won’t stop slipping
And besides my reputation’s on the line
We can fake it for the airwaves
Force our smiles, baby, half dead
From comparing myself to everyone else around me
to everyone else around me
everyone else around me
everyone else around me

(Source: themichaelryan)

Worst nightmares ever.

And half of them are real now.

(Source: themichaelryan)

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for being so difficult.

I’m sorry I’m so confusing because I’m so confused.

I’m sorry I’m not an open book.

I’m sorry I don’t make my thoughts be known.

I’m sorry I don’t have an answer to all your questions.

I’m sorry I’m so cold and so detached.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t be trusted.

I’m sorry I didn’t trust you.

I’m sorry for betraying you.

I’m sorry for pushing you away.

I’m sorry for not believing you.

I’m sorry for taking you for granted.

I’m sorry I let my insecurities get the best of me, the best of us.

I’m sorry that I can be such a stubborn piece of shit.

I’m sorry that I made you feel like a piece of shit.

I’m sorry I let my thoughts, my paranoia, get in the way.

I’m sorry that happiness to me is impossible.

I’m sorry for scaring you.

I’m sorry for every drop of tears I’ve caused.

I’m sorry for hurting your feelings.

I’m sorry for hurting you.

I’m sorry I’m so fucked up.

I’m sorry I take comfort in my misery.

I’m sorry I distract myself and don’t handle my problems in a healthy matter.

I’m sorry you had to be subjected to everything that makes me, ME.

I’m sorry we’re so toxic for eachother.

I’m sorry we couldn’t be what we wanted.

I’m sorry you and me couldn’t be “US”.

I don’t deserve you. I deserve nothing.

I am nothing.

I’m sorry I said what I said.
But even now you don’t realize the underlying problem.
And you don’t care.
You’ll never care what was actually bothering me.
It’s way easier to blame me than to see the truth.
I don’t blame you for it though.
I’m glad you hate me.
I wish I hated you. 

(Source: themichaelryan)

• I told you to leave me. I obviously am not fighting for this.
• Just leave me.
• Just fuck you.
• it’s funny how I just knew you two would like each other. just fuck you… 
  I guess she’s better at caring that I ever was, right?
• I was fine before you decided to ruin it all.
• My anxiety seriously has gotten to the point where I honestly don’t remember leaving you.
• It’s not the bad experience eating me up. I’ve been thinking about it for a good while.
• I’ll always long for my exes for a period of time. I’ll get over it.
• I want to break up. If this is a good idea in the end, I wont know until maybe tomorrow or the next day. I’m losing myself more than I need to. I’m adding more baggage to the shit I’m already carrying. I love you, I really do. But I don’t know if staying with you is what I want right now.
• I want to leave you but I don’t. Selfish purposes only.

Love never wanted me, but I took it anyway.

(Source: themichaelryan)